Getting Past the Fear of Computers

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Living in the Past What was it like to live through the Cuban Missile Crisis, Kennedy’s Assassination and other historic events. It might be of interest to learn how things were done in the past as a curiosity. Descriptions of other events that might be of interest  (eg. the first personal home computer).

Computers

Computer– an electronic device for storing and processing data, typically in binary form, according to instructions given to it in a variable program. (source: Apple Dictionary).  Charles Babbage, an English mechanical engineer and polymath, originated the concept of a programmable computer. Considered the “father of the computer” (source:  Wikipedia)

My first encounter with a computer was in an introductory class taken so long ago I am unable to recall where and when it happened.  I do recall being awed by IBM punch cards that carried code which when fed into a computer, that looked like a giant reel to reel tape deck, could solve problems at lightning speeds (eg. calculate the amount of money you would now have if you had started with a $1 back in 1492 and a bank paid you 5% interest compounded quarterly).  I remember the teacher trying to take away our fear and awe of computers by telling us “computers are only as smart as the programmer” and that we should not be afraid of them.

It was exciting to get my first personal computer back in 1986.  It was manufactured by Atari, a company more known for games than for work applications.  I didn’t buy a monitor, just used my 19″black and white portable TV as a screen.  My keyboard was similar to the one on the lower left in the picture.  I used a cartridge which slipped into the little opening above the  “6”,” 7″, “8” and “9” keys.  Everything about that computer seemed powerful and mysterious.  I believe the fact you could so easily correct a typed mistake was my favorite feature.   I cannot remember how many apps I had on the computer, but I do remember having to occasionally get out of a program and into DOS so I could run some utility or open a different program. My work was saved on a 5 ¼ inch floppy disk.  I remember that I had 48k of storage which seemed mind-blowingly  large to me.  I bought  a floppy disk that had a program called Lotus  Works which was a word processing program,  a data base manager and a spread sheet program.  Even though Lotus Works was intended for work applications, I found it was fun seeing how it worked, although there were times I wanted to trash the whole setup.  Maybe computers were not for me.

As nice as that Atari was, I soon tired of it and wanted a computer with Windows on it.  Eventually I was able to get a computer with Windows on it and my life became more complicated.  Many times I found myself scratching my head wondering what the computer was doing.  I had an operating system called Windows 3.1 which was soon surpassed by the release of Windows 95.  There were several more operating systems developed and for sale from Microsoft, but eventually I became very frustrated because it seemed like with every upgrade I would have problems with my existing programs.  It eventually seemed like the whole computer was out of sync with itself.  I had no idea what it was doing.

There have been many upgrades I’ve purchased including changing from a Windows based computer to a Mac system.  Switching to their operating system took a long time.  Here too there were times I had no idea what the computer was doing or wouldn’t let me do.

I have, however, learned a few things in my thirty one years of computing which have taken away much of my fear of them.

  1. Always, always make a back-up (maybe two or three to make sure).  I once accidentally erased a theme paper I had been working on for several hours.   I sat in shock staring at the now blank computer screen. Nowadays, I normally make three additional backup copies (two of them are free online services)
  2. Get familiar with a new program when there is no outside pressure.  Trying to learn a program under a time demand is a good way to put out bad work and also to get sick.
  3. When learning a new program, use only a few examples.  For example if I am exploring a spreadsheet program, I make only a few entries to see how the program handles them.  If I am working with a word processing program, I type in a few words to see if my printer is connected, how the program saves my work, what commands are needed to copy and paste.  This has saved me a lot of time.  At first, I was inclined to type in a lot of words or numbers  then discovered something didn’t work and lost all my work.
  4. When encountering a problem, stay calm-I have learned over the years that when I get an unexpected result, I need to stay calm, believe there is an answer, take a break from the work.  When I am calm and relaxed (usually the next morning), I come back to it and assume the computer has reacted properly, that I missed an instruction or I made an error putting the information in.  When I am relaxed the problem becomes more like a game or a puzzle and I am much more likely to see the mistake.
  5. When there is time (i.e. free from pressure), read the owners manual for your software to spot any additional capacities which you may have overlooked when you first started using the program.

I would love to hear of other’s experiences with computers

 

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This Present Moment

General Observations on Life: Observations on life and suggestions for a Happy Life.   The advantages of forgiveness, thankfulness.  The ability of family relationships to produce lasting pleasure versus the short pleasures of instant gratification.

 

When I was quite young, I couldn’t wait until I was ten years old because then my age would show as a double digit instead of a single.  The first time I joined a record club, it felt like my free records would never arrive.  I just kept thinking about how great it would be to have my own records to play on my sister’s stereo.   I was always looking ahead for some great experience I wanted to have like my first kiss, first car, or my first laptop computer.

Other times I would look back with longing for a time in the past.  A couple of years ago, while watching a movie from the 1970’s, I suddenly felt sad and trapped because I could never go back to that period of time.

Too often we are either remembering the past  with regrets or looking forward to some event in the future.  But all we ever have is the present moment.

Someone had a song many years ago that sort of followed this thought when it suggested that we ought to learn to enjoy every moment of our life.  I have tried this at times with doing chores like the dishes and mopping floors or some other “unpleasant”task.   I remember one time contemplating whether to mop the floor or not.   I thought If I wanted to do it, then it might feel like fun.  But, if someone told me I had to do it, then I might hate it.  The difference in perception seemed to lie within me and not the task.  If true, then it would seem I could enjoy whatever activity I was involved in.  Why not consider it to be enjoyable.  It could make all the difference in how I go through my days.

Life can seem an amazing miracle if I look at it with baby’s eyes.  Coming home Friday night, I noticed the trees, empty of leaves just standing there with their limbs outstretched to the sky as if either pleading for sun or rain or the covering of leaves.  Each one had it’s own unique stance, like an array of sculptures placed worldwide for the delight of every person on earth who stopped for a moment and enjoyed the view.  How pleasant.

So when I am doing chores, I have the freedom to do it any way I choose.  When doing dishes I can stack the dishes a certain way or I can reverse how I do them.  When cleaning the floors, I can see how many creative ways I can do the work.  Maybe I’ll start downstairs, or maybe I’ll start in the upstairs bedroom.  Even raking leaves can be a great time, looking at the number of leaves there are and thinking how every one of them was on a tree just a short while ago.  Those trees while empty of leaves now, will soon be filled with brand new leaves (today is the first day of Spring).  How can such a massive drop of leaves be completely replaced?  Where is the machine that produces such a quantity of leaves for the world?

Even visiting someone who is sick can be pleasant.  I have seen appropriate humor relieve the most tense situation.  Sometimes the other person wants to share deep feelings and worries and even that can be seen as a blessing to that relationship.  Last night we watched the movie “Sully,” a movie about the captain of a commercial jet who had to ditch the plane with 155 passengers on board into the Hudson River.  What touched me was how fast the emergency people moved out to the slowly sinking plane.  They didn’t stop to consider if it would be too cold (it was) or too wet (they were in the water), or a hassle.  They just put on their gear and moved out into the middle of the river.  Sometimes, sickness or accident can be a motivator for people to come together who might otherwise not.

Each day has it’s own opportunities, rewards and challenges. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:34 (English Standard Version)

 

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Those Probing, Prying Medical Exams

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As a very young boy I prided myself on being able to take a shot from the doctor without crying.  I thought I was better than other kids who would cry and fuss over it.  I recall thinking that I was a “big boy”because I could take it. Those people in white coats didn’t scare me.

As the years went on and I learned more about my body, I became more protective and private.  When I saw the doctor in his brightly lit, picture-less office, I didn’t trust him with my deepest secrets. When I  received my first physical, which included inspecting the normally  covered areas of our bodies, I was extremely uncomfortable and  embarrassed.  When I was ordered to Fort Wayne, Detroit for my Army physical I was even more uncomfortable because I had to become part of an assembly-line with a bunch of other guys.  Whew, was I glad when that was over!

After the Army, I had to undergo another thorough exam by my employer’s doctor.  In addition to being awkward, it was painful at the end.   Then there was my overnight stay in a hospital to see if what I thought was a heart attack really was.  It was not.   It was just a panic attack which can have similar symptoms.

In the course of my life, I have come to realize probing medical exams are unavoidable. I learned that getting looked at by medical professionals was the best way of coping with the changes of aging. I discovered that the uncomfortable preparation for a colonoscopy was the price I had to pay to make sure the plumbing downstairs was in good working order.  I found out that complex eye exams were necessary because problems in the eyes can develop.  Getting these exams helped me understand and accept my health changes rather than allowing  my mind to imagine morbid possibilities.

Since turning sixty,  I have relaxed before and during medical exams of all kinds often joking with the individuals or even getting to know them better.  For one diagnostic test, I learned the technician had graduated from the same college I did. We had a nice talk while the paper work was being finished.  Since reaching my older years, I have learned that I don’t have to give into my fears, that it is always better to know what is going on instead of pretending the problem isn’t there.  Years ago, I had a tumor on the inside of my right ankle.  I ignored it for months and finally submitted to an MRI and a biopsy which  revealed it was simply an unusual but harmless tumor.

For anyone suddenly facing  tests in sterile rooms with giant machines making strange noises and flashing digital lights, it might help to switch your focus from the machine to the person in the room with you. A friendly word or joke can clear the room of all fears and worries in seconds flat.

“Hey doc, did you hear about a woman who becomes frustrated after a bus driver calls her baby ugly. She angrily carries her baby to a seat and informs a nearby male passenger that the driver has insulted her. The man, encouraging the woman to go back and reprimand the driver says, “I’ll hold your monkey while you go.”

 

 

 

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All That Gray Hair

Still true at 71-½ years of life.

richrockwood's avatarRich Rockwood, Christian Author

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Experience as a Flashlight: I stared at the man in the motel lobby who was talking to some other people.  He was balding and his face had moles, lines, and bumps.  I saw him however as a young man.  Underneath that exterior, I saw a man with a full head of hair, young skin, sharp features and determined chin.  His youth was still there even though his facial parts had changed due to aging.

I now see myself in the same way.  Even though I see gray hair around the temples and in most of my beard, I know that inside I am the same person I have always been.  Oh sure, I have gained some wisdom from the experiences I have been through, but I still have a lot of the same fears and uncertainties I struggled with when I was much younger.  Even though I can’t throw a…

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On the Threshold

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Today I toured the Kennedy Space Center and felt a connection to another world famous place having to do with two earlier pioneers of the skies-Orville and Wilbur Wright.

My visit to Kitty Hawk happened a number of years ago, but I can still recall the feeling I had as I stood on the spot where years of trying finally paid off for the men.  Where I was standing, their primitive plane defied gravity for fifty nine seconds traveling eight hundred and fifty two feet down the line.  I marveled at the audacity  of two bicycle shop owners who thought man could fly.  It was Wilbur who once said “I don’t see any reason why man cannot fly.”   And they did it!  What an inspiration.

As I rode the bus around KSC this very day and saw equipment and rockets that lifted men and women all the way to the moon I felt the same exhilaration.  I heard about the problems confronting NASA which required thinking beyond known limits.  And riding around the massive center seeing oversized machines that literally crawl with million pound rockets on their back,  rockets capable of attaining speeds in the thousands of miles per hour in just a few moments after lift-off, I was moved.  And then seeing on-screen Imax presentations of what a landing on Mars might look like I was motivated to share my thoughts and feelings here.

The word needs to get out that the men and women of NASA are planning to send people to Mars by 2030, and after that, into deep space.  They even planted possibilities in the minds of the young school children present, suggesting they might be the ones to make the trip to Mars.  The video was inspiring and motivating.

What is it about people who dare to reach the skies whether literally or figuratively? Somehow or in some other way they are inspired to believe what everyone says is impossible,  is actually possible.   And they are the ones who move the world beyond it’s narrow thinking, arguing and fighting to see that together we can accomplish much good for this world we live in…and beyond.

We can do it.  If they dared reach to the skies, then we can too.

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An Insight from the Past to Help in the Present

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Have the inequalities of life ever dragged you to the depths?  Are you ever tempted to compare your life to someone else’s?  I am.  In that disturbed state one day I came across Psalm 73 in the Bible and was shocked and awed to see there my struggle…. and my solution.

The writer of the psalm, a Jew named Asaph living in Babylon during his nation’s exile, was struggling with what he saw.  He believed “God is good to the pure in heart.”  However, reality was not backing it up  “For I envied the arrogant and saw the prosperity of the wicked.  They have no struggles…” and on he went listing the things he saw in his life which got to him.  He felt foolish  “Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure and have washed my hands in innocence….When I tried to understand all this, it troubled me deeply.”  The word he used could also be translated “worried me both in body and mind.”

Those have been my feelings too.  There was a time when I looked at a man who seemed to have money to burn.   One day he purchased a new color TV and a video recorder, close to $2,000 in 1970’s dollars.  On the other hand, I was a new believer watching my savings diminish every day as I looked for work.  If I was in a relationship with Almighty God, why did I have so little and that unbelieving man so much.   I couldn’t make sense of it.

I think it is normal to compare possessions and income levels with others and see them as a indicator of worth.  When I worked for a big corporation, salary discussions were something I deliberately avoided because I knew it would hurt either the other person or me.  So I never told anyone my income.  That was easy.  Ignoring clothes, houses, computers and gadgets has been a lot harder.

Can you relate?  Is there someone in your life who seems to have nicer clothes, a bigger house, a faster car, a newer, more powerful computer?   Take a minute and be honest with yourself.  Are this person’s possessions causing you difficulty?   Things have a way of blocking relationships with other persons and even with God.  When we let these feelings linger we begin to pull back.  We become obsessed with trying to figure out why the inequities exist.  What did we do wrong and what did they do right?  Is God unfair after all?  If we are children of God, why are we always struggling to make ends meet, to feel accepted.  It can be a troubling dilemma without the benefit of divine insight.  We can feel like we are losing our balance.

The psalmist finally saw the big picture when “..I entered the sanctuary of God” Once inside the sacred fellowship with God, he saw the whole scenario.  “then I understood their final destiny.  Surely you place them on slippery ground…”  He realized that possessions wear out, clothes fade and only those who have a relationship with God have something of lasting value.

What is remarkable is that man gained this perspective not in the Temple, not in his own country, but in a foreign land.  The Hebrew word translates “asylum, hallowed part, a holy place, a consecrated place.”  He was not transported away from life.  He found perspective after entering sanctuary with God right where he was…in a foreign land.

That is the power of a relationship with God.  We need not wait until Sunday service to be raised to a higher place.  In the time it takes to blink an eye we can bring our beaten spirit into the sacred place of God’s domain.   In less time than it takes to list our grievances, we can move into a prayer which places everything in perspective.      The twentieth century author and theologian D. Elton Trueblood once noted:  “At the profoundest depths in life, men talk not about God but with him.”  If we’re having trouble understanding God why not talk to him?  There is nothing more personal or more accessible than prayer.

If something about your life seems unfair, perhaps you have been comparing it to another’s.  The best antidote is a thankful attitude.  Try and list on a sheet of paper ten things for which you are thankful.  Then see if you can stretch it to twenty.  Maybe at this point many more blessings come to mind.  Keep listing them.  When you have reached as many as you can, then look at your list.   As you look it over, begin to whisper your thanks to God for each item there.   Is your list longer than the person you’ve been comparing yourself too?  Of course you can’t know just as you can’t know their problems.  All we can ever see is our own point of view….until we come into God’s point of view in prayer.

So when our hearts become full of jealousy because we have compared our lot in life to someone else’s remember there is a place where inequalities disappear. The lesson the psalmist learned so many years ago can still bless us today.

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I Put Your Hand in Mine

It is now 6-½ years married to my wife and the feelings have not subsided. I understand her better and enjoy her company and look forward to a short vacation starting next weekend. Meanwhile, I wanted to repost this in honor of my wife as we come into another Valentine’s Day.

richrockwood's avatarRich Rockwood, Christian Author

To my dear wife:  I feel a rolling warmth through my being every time I put your hand in mine.  First I feel connected to you and then surrounded by you.  Why should this be if I am claustrophobic?  I ride elevators taking in all the oxygen there is so I can sigh a long prayer all the way to my destination floor.  Yet, when you touch me I feel closed in and safe.

Even if your hand is sweaty from working out or warm because of a hot flash, I still want to squeeze it because it is you, and you squeeze back.

When you come home from work, I want to touch your shoulders and rub away the tension and my missing you.

I feel a thrill when I wake up in the morning and realize you are there.  Even during the night if I wake and hear…

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Drawing Jazz and Faith

Still true for those who look deeper at their life.

richrockwood's avatarRich Rockwood, Christian Author

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Many years ago my late wife and I visited Justin’s in Albany which features world class jazz musicians.  It soon became a favorite place of ours with cool jazz and hot Cajun food.  It consists of two rooms, one where people mainly drink and socialize, the other where people eat dinner and listen to a few musicians packed into a small corner near the front.  Live music always trumps recordings and this jazz is played in the traditional format of theme, individual improvisations, and finale.   It was predictable and new every time.

One time I noticed a young woman had positioned herself up close to the musicians and was sketching them.  I was surprised by what I saw on her pad.  Instead of drawings of musicians, she was showing musical notes swirling around them.  The musicians were not drawn in correct body proportions, but reminded me of something Picasso might…

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January in Michigan

 

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The air is gently moving flurries of snow while on the ground and houses and in the trees the day’s accumulation gives a luminosity unseen in summertime.  It’s January in Michigan so this is normal and expected.  The recent thaw tricked us into thinking that Spring was almost here.

It’s been an easy winter so far, but when the snows come, travel is slower and walking can be dangerous.  For the elderly, falling is the number one source of injury. Sometimes I panic when Lake Michigan seems unable to stop churning out what is known as Lake Effect Snow.

This time however, I feel a sense of calm surrender to this bright ambiance I see outside.  It’s the vision of pure whiteness transfiguring my home city in winter.

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The Only Thing That Counts is Faith Working Through Love

“For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision counts for anything; the only thing that counts is faith working through love.”  (Galatians 5:6 NRSV)

I have had pride over some of my accomplishments in the past.  I was in the first graduating class from the newest state college in Michigan at the time.  I completed a Masters of Divinity Degree and served a congregation in upstate New York for nineteen years.  I served in the United States Army during the Vietnam War.  I am a published author.

It is quite natural to feel successful because of these accomplishments, but in terms of my relationship with God, these are not the things that matter.  The Apostle Paul in writing to the believers in Galatia was pointing out that pride in religious observances was not what counted under the terms and conditions of the Gospel.  The Gospel had come to them in simple terms (love one another) and conditions (faith in Christ’s victory over sin).

I was struck by the utter simplicity of Paul’s words this morning.  The only thing that counts with God is faith working through love:  His love for me and my love for others.    And I note that His love for me was not based on my love and obedience to His will.  Similarly, my love for others can not be based on their love and doing what I want them to do.   Faith is the vital ingredient.

The picture of living in faith through love to me is like someone who orients his sails so his vessel moves forward at maximum speed.  The movement comes from the wind and not human propulsion.

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