What Happens When I Write

I thought it worthwhile to ponder what happens when I write.  It is largely a mystery to me, but yet something I enjoy doing and work at passionately until I am happy with the result.

I would like to be able to say I have a set schedule for writing which I follow each day.  I  am still working on one.  So far I write in the mornings and do other things in the afternoon.  Mornings seem productive because my mind is rested and ready for work.

What I write does not seem to matter.  I can be adding narrative to my novel or working on my blog.  It doesn’t even matter if I am transcribing notes from a meeting I attended.  It’s the act of writing, putting a sentence together that accurately conveys what happened in a way that pleases and draws attention.  I do not write just to share facts or record events.  I write to please others and myself.

I sometimes write to untangle feelings generated by an experience I’ve had.   While I am doing that, I am able to understand the significance of what happened or what my true feelings are.  If it is a problem I am facing, writing often reveals a solution to me.  I believe this happens due to the fact that when I write I slow my mind down and focus sequentially on each thought.

Other times I write for entertainment.  When I am writing my novel, I am motivated to see where the story will go and how it is fitting together.  The payoff  comes when I sit back and take the role of reader and  glide into something crafted from my own experiences.  Maybe writing here is an escape of reality to a world I have created.  In my latest novel, there is a flashback to when I was growing up and I can almost see the vintage cars, the blossoms on the trees, the way things were when I was a child.  It’s gives me satisfaction exploring the scenes which are a combination of imagination and experience.

Sometimes I write for the discipline of it.  This is true when I write a poem.  I look for words that have the right sound and meter to fit my rhyming scheme.  When I use the word discipline, I usually think of unpleasant things.  But in this case, working on a poem is like marching in time with a military drill unit.  When I am successful it looks good…and sounds good.

There are times when I write to keep my tools (eg typing, computer use, sentence construction) sharp.  I don’t dare let them rust at this time in my life.  Tools sometimes degrade when they are not used.  I need to use my writing skills to keep them in working order.

The final thing I’ve noticed happens when I write is there is a mystical connection to something outside myself.  I usually call it God.  Others call it their Muse.  I won’t say I am right and others are wrong.  I will say that there is something outside me that connects with me every time I write.  I feel a solid channel of ideas and words pouring from mind to fingers  with a force that my fingers can barely match.  There is bouncing vitality and energy that does not occur at any other time for me.

For me, what happens when I write cannot really be explained, it is simply experienced.

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What Limits Potential?

I can still recall a thought I had in my youth as I walked out of church mid-week.  I had not been there for a service, perhaps just a visit.  As I left, I felt happy about my life and in that moment thought “there is nothing stopping me from doing whatever I want with my life.”  As I look back I think I realized for the first time that I had within me vast potential to do whatever I set my mind to do.   I then prayed that I would never let go of that perspective.    I can do anything I want…except fly.

For probably just as long, I have been fascinated with the idea of flight.  I have a recurring dream that I can fly, that I’ve figured out how to do it.  I just relax and let the wind take me away.  Ironically, I’ve had a fear of flying in airplanes because they sometimes crash.  In my dreams, however,  I soar with ease while other people don’t seem able to understand how easy it is to fly.  Thinking about potential might have been what Wilbur Wright was thinking when he said “I see no reason why man cannot fly like the birds.”  He and his brother Orville were able to tap into the potential God had given them and humans have been flying for over one hundred years.

The seeds of California Redwood trees are so small that you can easily pick up twenty or thirty of them with one hand.   Yet within each each tiny seed is the potential for a tree which will reach a height of over 300 feet and a diameter of  over 20 feet.   Typically a seed contains an embryo, a supply of nutrients and a coat.   The nutrients rich in oil or starch and protein begin as tissue which comes from the parent plant.  These nutrients contain the potential for the plants eventual size.

All this thinking about potential got me wondering about the untapped potential that still exists within me.  Even at age sixty seven there is untapped potential in me.  Once again I feel I know how to fly.

After writing a novel, I am now learning what it means to promote it.  This is hard.  I am not comfortable talking about myself, but two things have been shown me.  The first truth I heard on a Webinar: “I am not promoting myself.  I am promoting God.”  The second truth I read:  “Anyone who can write a novel is also capable of promoting it.”  These truths are opening the flood gates of nutrition from God which will help unleash more of my potential.  And this is happening in my sixty-seventh year of my life.

For the reader of this, I am wondering if you might have concluded that there is no more potential for growth inside you.  Did you decide years ago you had reached your full potential?  Or…are you feeling today you are on the verge of soaring into some new adventure?  I hope you are as excited today as I am about the future.  If you are not, go and read the parable of the talents in which the third man was so afraid he would lose what he had that he buried his talent (potential?).  In the end, what he had was taken away.

Let’s not let that happen to any of us.

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A First Prize Day

Last Saturday took First Prize in the annals of my memory.  The wife and I got out of bed when we were ready and not when the clock alarmed us.   We had a leisurely breakfast.  I went off to a meeting while she involved herself with laundry.  We discussed a ten mile bike ride to Art Prize at Meijer Gardens.

When I returned we each busied ourselves with inside tasks.   What a difference a night’s rests can make on one’s attitude towards work.   So while I did my work, the wife finished hers.  There was peace in the house.  I had a tinge of anxiety about a late start shortening our art viewing time, but then remembered we had the entire day.  The anxiety vanished like a popped bubble.

As I worked,  I thought about the Sunday dinner we would host tomorrow.  We would host her dad and son, not many people, but family nonetheless.   We have dinner with dad a couple times a month.  I am warmed by the excellent home cooking, conversation and sense of belonging.

Then we went shopping.  There was a smoothness to the pushing and filling of the cart, setting everything on the conveyor belt, packing our goods  in our re-useable fabric bags  and loading them into the car.  Off-loading everything at home was just as smooth.

After filling the bike tires for maximum comfort, we set off on an all-day adventure

We took surface streets out to Meijer Gardens and roamed the display area, only to be told “no picture-taking.”  So after a quick look around, we headed to the major hub downtown.

We strained up hills and flew into the valleys.  It was a heart-pumping, leg spinning, fast viewing spin across the landscape until we reached the center of town.  There we saw sidewalks thick with folks walking, talking, snapping photos and ogling artistic expressions  of people’s magical imaginings.

My insides rejoiced: “the more art I see, the more I want to see.”  Then we were forced into a bottleneck with too much art within inches of each other.  Too many people were walking too many different directions around us.  It felt like time to go.

Finally we left, pedaling home in the diminishing sunset legs rubberized by a twenty four mile two wheeled junket to and through Art Prize 2012.  The day took First Prize as far as the wife and I were concerned.

Last Saturday showed me that extraordinary days pop up without notice and flow over their twenty-four hour boundary into the sacred space of memory.

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Changes Are Coming

Up until now, this blog has mostly been bite sized thoughts generated from my morning devotions.

I believe I can do better.  There is much I am learning and much I need to share with others.

I am two months into my sixty seventh year of life and my third as a writer.  Every part of life is an adventure.  I love the line from a James Taylor song “The secret to life is enjoying the passing of time.”  I am not there yet, but I would like to be.

Stay tuned.

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Book Review of “Memory Theft”

Local newspaper gives favorable review to “Memory Theft”

Grieving man faces threats to his past in novel by local author

Anyone who would like to find out more may do so at www.richrockwood.com.

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I Will Awake the Dawn

As I read Psalm 57 today, I recognized this line from a song we sing at church:   “Be exalted, O God, above the heavens.  Let your glory be over all the earth.” (Psalm 57:5 NRSV).  It’s a song that gets stuck in my head for weeks every time we sing it.  I noticed the context was not what I would consider a happy occasion for the man who wrote it (King David).  Just before he wrote that line, he had written this line.  “I lie down among lions that greedily devour human prey; their teeth are spears and arrows, their tongues sharp swords.” (Psalm 57:4 NRSV).  The line that comes after it is just as bad “They set a net for my steps; my soul was bowed down…” (Psalm 57:6 NRSV).  I wondered what was going on in David’s life at the time.

A quick check of a commentary told me the psalm was written while David was on the run from King Saul.  He was spending a lot of time in caves hiding from the King and his soldiers.  In the dank darkness of a cave David had pleaded with the Lord for mercy because as he put it, “I lie down among lions that greedily devour human prey.”  The words he used tell us how real and scary the danger was to him.

Then, as was earlier pointed out, glorious words of exaltation mixed with prayer come out of him and something happens in him.  He begins to first feel and then know he will be alright.  God will act.  How did he know that?

I came across this interesting fact in the Keil & Delitzsch Commentary on the Old Testament Vol. 5: Psalms

(Note: With reference to the above passage in the Psalms, the Talmud, B. Berachoth 3b, says, “A cithern used to hang above David’s bed; and when midnight came, the north wind blew among the strings, so that they sounded of themselves; and forthwith he arose and busied himself with the Tôra until the pillar of the dawn ( הׁשחר עמוד ) ascended.” Rashi observes, “The dawn awakes the other kings; but I, said David, will awake the dawn ( הׁשחר את מעורר אני ).”)

The idea which might not be clear to everyone is that King David would awaken when he heard the sound of the strings on his guitar like instrument during the night and begin meditating on the Law of God.   He would realize again and again what God was like, that God would not abandon him, that God had shown himself again and again to be merciful.  His plea for help was going to be heard.  And as he continued in prayer and contemplation through those hours, he became filled with energy and hope.  So filled with hope was he that he didn’t wait for the dawn, he awakened it instead.  And at the end of the psalm he repeats those great words:      “Be exalted, O God, above the heavens.  Let your glory be over all the earth.” (Psalm 57:11 NRSV)

While David was not perfect, he did seem to understand that seeking after the Lord’s heart has many benefits including a 180 degree turnaround in attitude about one’s life.   It seems an intriguing thought (challenge?) to be so closely connected to the Lord, even in the night time that the hope we then feel seems to bring the sun out hours ahead of schedule.

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The Lord’s Compassion Is Over All that He Has Made

In these days of violence in the Middle East over spiritual insults and rancorous, negative political campaigning in the U.S., I invite the reader to contemplate this biblical statement about God

8   The Lord is gracious and merciful,
          slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
9   The Lord is good to all,
          and his compassion is over all that he has made.  (Psalm 145 NRSV)

What an excellent statement to lift our eyes above the turmoil and heart break of this time on this planet.  God is gracious (kind and pleasant) and merciful ( bringing relief from something unpleasant), slow (not quick or fast) to anger (annoyance or displeasure)  and abounding (having large quantities) in steadfast (unwavering) love (intense feelings of deep affection).

The psalmist then goes on to say God’s compassion (concern for those who are suffering) is over all (every plant, animal, and human being) he has made.

Now this is some good news, something for anyone in any religion or political party to accept as true.  What difference would it make in your life if you began to see all creatures, even those of a different political party and a different religion,  being loved and cared for by God?

 

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Removing a Sexual Sin

The following words written by the great King David after he had abused his authority over Bathsheba, another man’s wife, by having sexual relations with her.  When he found out she was pregnant, he arranged to have her husband killed in battle.  After being confronted by the prophet Nathan, he finally realized what he had done and wrote (scribbled?) these words.

1   Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your steadfast love;
according to your abundant mercy
blot out my transgressions.
2   Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
and cleanse me from my sin. (Psalm 51: 1-2 NRSV)

Having intimate relations with another person is well…an intimate thing.  In the best of circumstances it takes place between a husband and a wife in the comfort and security of a committed relationship.  In the worst of circumstances it is driven by an addiction or physical abuse.   The porn industry lowers people’s normal desires for physical intimacy to something outside God’s intentions.  Shame and regret attach themselves to the sinner like magnets.

Men and women can be caught in the web of sexual addiction for years without realizing there is a way out.  God, our creator, is a merciful and gracious God who also loves us.  As we ask for His mercy, He forgives us and cleanses us even from sexual sins.  When we’re in the thick of it, we may think there is no way out of habitual sexual sin.  If that is the case for anyone reading this, look up the story of King David and see what happened.  It may be found in Chapters Eleven and Twelve of Second Samuel in the Bible.  Psalm 51 is then David’s prayer for forgiveness and cleansing.   Make it your prayer too.

The sin is never too big or shameful to be forgiven by God.  This is true even of sexual sin

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Who In the Skies Can Be Compared to the Lord

For who in the skies can be compared to the LORD? Who among the heavenly beings is like the LORD,”  (Psalm 89:6 NRSV)

Recently, my wife and I took vacation in Washington State to visit her son and his girl friend (and meet her family).  We took big jets to get there and back.  I have noticed I usually get nervous before a flight.  My mind plays mental videos of terrible scenarios.  It also plays tapes of my last day alive.  I try to counter those with positive thoughts about the number of people who are delivered safely from airport to airport each and every day.  An estimated 30,000 flights take place every day just in the US.  Worldwide it is estimated to be about 50,000 flights with around one million people in the air during a twenty four hour period.  That’s a lot of human beings up there!  Think of all the elected officials, sports players, movie stars, business and religious leaders up there winging through the skies each day.

When the man who wrote this psalm lived three thousand years ago, he had no idea of human flight.  He was likely thinking of angels.  Still his point is a good one.   All the angels (and today people whizzing around the skies) cannot be compared to the Lord.  He is infinite, we are finite, created just like the angels.  He is perfect in all he does and says, we make mistakes all the time.  We have beauty that fades, His radiating glory has never and will never diminish.  He made the heavens, we have navigated only a minute fraction of them.  His love is eternal, our love is fickle.

Take a look up in the skies today and imagine all those people flying around.  Then in your mind, move above all that traffic to the vast reaches of the universe.    Above all of that and even all the angels is the Lord who is beyond comparison, but not beyond loving.  With our finite minds, we miraculously sense the beauty and incomparable love of our Lord and our God.   How does that make you feel?

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The gods of the peoples are idols

For all the gods of the peoples are idols, but the LORD made the heavens.  (Psalm 96:5 NRSV)

What a world of truth this little verse contains.  In the first reference to higher power, the writer uses the word elohim, gods in the ordinary sense.  In the second reference, he uses the word yehôvâh (the) self Existent Jehovah the Jewish national name of God.   The psalmist is contrasting the two powers.  The first power appears to be strong, but is only an idol elıyl good for nothing, a vanity; the second is from the one who made the heavens shâmayim  the sky.   Which one do we want to follow?

Logically we should always follow the power which is legitimate, but too often we go for the power that seems to make us into something great (eg. a shiny new car, a great hairdo, a flashy suit).  Sometimes it can even be another person we want to be next to because of how it makes us look.

Getting into nature is such a good way to get perspective.  With the night air a bit cooler, let’s do ourselves a favor and gaze into the night sky and ask ourselves “who is Lord at this time in my life?”  Idols come and go, but God is eternal and holds all the power we will ever need and more.

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