As my mouth was speaking these words to my wife in our devotions, my heart scanned memory for a time this was true for me:
“After they called in the apostles and had them flogged, they ordered them not to speak in the name of Jesus and released them. Then they went out from the presence of the Sanhedrin, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to be dishonored on behalf of the name.” (Acts 5:40-41 Holman Christian Study Bible)
The scan yielded nothing. If the video of my life was re-wound and played back, I would not observe a single incident like the one written there on the sacred page.
On the walls of my heart, a mist began to form. I have never put my life on the line for Jesus. Look at ALL He did for me! I glanced at my will to see if there were any evidences my honor and life would be willing to be abused for His sake. It seemed only filled with selfish thoughts.
Then my ears heard my wife read these words:
“My days are like a lengthening shadow, and I wither away like grass.” (Psalm 102:11 Holman Christian Study Bible)
And I heard my years tell me “you’re getting old.” My intellect reminded me that old happens to everyone. My bank book shouted out the number of checks I’ve written to doctors in the last twenty years.
Then a tiny thought popped up and took center stage. It was this: “staying faithful to the Lord as you age takes courage. It is not easy getting old and surrendering everything you have and are back to the Creator.”
My eyes focused on the heading to Psalm 102 and saw the Big Picture. It’s heading promised to show me “Eternity in Light of Affliction.”
With fresh determination I decided again to follow Jesus willing to be used as a witness of His love even through the last stages of my life.