Only Sleeping


Experience as a Flashlight 

“I’m Only Sleeping”  (Beatles)

When I wake up early in the morning
Lift my head, I’m still yawning
When I’m in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float up stream (float up stream)

Please, don’t wake me, no, don’t shake me
Leave me where I am – I’m only sleeping

The clock’s numbers seemed frozen in time.  My staring didn’t  help.  I couldn’t get back to sleep and I didn’t know what to do with myself.   I thought about the next day and how hard it would be to make it through.  I would probably have a dull headache.  My brain wouldn’t function at full capacity.  I would go through the day in a daze.

During other sleepless nights I have tried to outsmart the sleeplessness.  I tell myself “as long as I can’t get to sleep, I might as well do some work.”  While thinking about what I could be doing, I usually fall back to sleep.  Other times I have thought about all the people who need my prayers and after starting down my list, the next thing I know it is morning.

Sometimes I have tried wearing myself out doing push-ups until I dropped.  This seemed to release any anxiety and tension and I usually fell back to sleep rather quickly.

The experts at a local sleep clinic had me for one night and told me I had a slight case of sleep apnea and a CPAP (continuous positive airway pressure) device would probably help.  I endured long lectures on how to use the device, but in the end I had to return it because I kept tearing it off during the night, not to mention scaring myself when I got up to use the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

Nowadays I use a little strip that opens up air passage into my nostrils.  This plus a cold glass of water and a couple of Tylenol tablets help me most days.  If that doesn’t work, I know the last thing that will work is staring at the clock.  That just adds to the frustration.  There are things I can do to help myself in this as well as many other difficulties in life.   If all else fails, I can pray.  That seems to tamp down exasperation faster than anything.

About richrockwood

Writer of Christian fiction whose first book "Memory Theft" delves into the impact an extortion scam has on a retired widower. For more information please check out
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1 Response to Only Sleeping

  1. Jerry says:

    Ha! Scared yourself…nice. Merry Christmas Rich!

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